Just finished my online application for disability.

This marks my throwing in the towel on looking for work for now. I’m still going to respond to headhunters emails and calls, but I’m not going out of my way to search. I’m just not up to it. I don’t think I’m a good candidate right now, what with the dissociations and flashbacks happening to the tune of one or two a week. The ol’ insomnia is back again, too, throwing off my sleep schedule. I don’t want a repeat of what happened with Shopzilla.

I need to take time out. Time to heal up these fragments and disintegrations. Stuff I haven’t dealt with all my life. It’s about f-ing time, actually.